Right now, I am tired.  Between the anticipation of a hurricane, days off from school in anticipation of the hurricane, preparing for Halloween, celebrating Halloween, and then two more days off from school due to parent conferences and election day, I’ve missed my quiet-times.  My routines.  My spiritual rhythms.  Yes, I know this is life and I need to be flexible, but, as I said, I am tired and distracted by the many things going-on around me and even inside me.  And it seems that the busyness is not going to let-up now that the next round of holidays is staring me right in the eyes.

Apart from these outside distractions, I’ve struggled a bit with the question of where I want to go with these passions that I have unearthed over the past year.  While writing seems to be my primary way of figuring things out, creating art feels the most natural way for me to express myself to the outside world.  And so, the struggle lies therein.  How do I allot my time for these two things when I am not fulfilling my other roles of Mom, Wife, and Domestic Engineer?  When I am working-on an art project, I am constantly aware of the fact that I am neglecting my blog.  And, when I am blogging, I miss the thrill of creating with my hands.  I know there are many women who seem to be able to juggle all these tasks and still have time leftover, but I am not one of them.

Where do I go from here?  Where do I need to focus my energies? For the past year or so, I have basked in the joy of just realizing my passions.  Now, I am finding that it’s probably time to set some new intentions around these passions.  Otherwise, things start to feel stale.  So, for now, I may be doing a little less writing and a little more creating, as I figure-out what direction I need to be moving.   I will continue to post some of my latest creations.  And, as I ponder the direction in which I am being led, I’ll be sure to include you in the process.

(Bookmark:  fashioned from scraps of vintage grain sacks once covering my Great-Grandmother’s ironing board.)

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